Broken

Something complete but totally broken.

So many lies that I have proven.

From the day that my mind is awaken.

I just hope that I have mistaken.

Living in one roof, but feels like a million miles apart.

And I can’t feel anything.

The wind blew and it’s cold as my heart.

I wish I could fix everything.

It is hard to pretend that everything is okay.

It is hard to fake a smile that easily fades away.

It is hard to give something that I don’t have.

It is hard to beg for their love.

I can’t understand why my life is like this. 

And i know there’s nothing I can do.

Don’t know if i can have a bliss.

Coz it feels like there won’t be anything new.

I rather wish my life is taken.

Because my feelings became swollen.

I hope it’ll be okay, the life that im living.

Coz its hard to have something complete but totally broken.

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Habang (Spoken Poetry)

Habang lumalabas ako, o kay saya. Ang taas ng sikat ng araw at ang lamig ng simoy ng hangin. Sabay bigla biglang malulungkot at naiisip bakit hindi ka mapasakin.

Habang naglalakad, mga tao’y nakangiti habang tumitingin sa akin. Mga puno’y sumasayaw, mga ibon ay humuhuni. Pero hindi ko pa rin mailabas ang damdamin.

Habang papasok at basang basa sa ulan. Naalala ko ang mga luha sa unan. Ang pakiramdam na makatabi ka sa duyan.Na ako’y nandito at ika’y nanjan. Malabo tayong magkatagpo.

Habang umaakyat , pakiramdam ko papunta na ako sa langit. Kasi kaht anong aspeto walang bahid ng pangit. Prang isang anghel na nais makamit. Parang tala na nais maabot. Pero mukhang tala na sa iba naman babagsak.

Habang bumababa ay lumalakas ang tibok sa aking dibdib. Kasabay ng pagbaba ang dahan dahan na paghulog ng loob ko sayo. Na kahit hindi mo matamo ay mananatiling mararamdaman. Dahil mananatili ito kahit alam kong ako’y masasaktan.

Habang pauwi, mga tao pa rin ay nakangiti pero bakas sa kanilang mukha ang pagod. Ako hinding hindi mapapagod dahil alam kong malalagpasan ko rin ang lahat ng ito. Hindi ko man makuha ang aking gusto. Mananatili akong masaya para sayo.

Habang dahang dahang pumipikit, nakikita ko ang mundo ko kapag wala ka. Dumidilim at liwanag ay nawawala na. Itutulog ko nalang to baka sakaling mangyari ang aking gusto. Baka doon ay magkaroon ng tayo.

Umaga na ulit, habang gumigising, unti unti na rin akong nagigising sa katotohanan. Lahat ng aking pinagdaanan. Lahat ng nangyari sa aking buhay, lahat ng naramdaman ko ay mananatiling ganto. Kasi habang ginagawa ko ang mga iyon, ikaw lang ang iniisip ko.

Walang mali sa pag-ibig

Lahat ba ng bagay na sumobra nagiging masama?

Masama ba ang magbakasakali? Makipagsapalaran? O ipaglaban ang mga bagay na walang kasiguraduhan?

Masama bang magbakasakali na mamahalin rin ako ng taong mahal? Na magkakagusto sakin ang taong nagugustuhan ko? Na sana balang araw ay maging masaya naman ako dahil sa pagkakataong yun nakuha ko na ang hinahangad ko.

Masama bang makipagsapalaran kasabay ng mga taong nasa paligid mo? Kung ibigay ko ang lahat kung wala namang kapalit? Kung iwan ko lahat pero wala namang babalik?

Masama bang ipaglaban ang mga bagay na walang kasiguraduhan. Makipagtalo kahit alam kong di ako mananalo. Makipagunahan kahit alam ko ako pa rin sa dulo. Tawagin ka kahit alam kong wala ka pa rin pagtingin. At mahalin ka kahit alam kong di mo ko kayang mahalin.

Minsan naiisip ko kung tama pa ba lahat  ng ginagawa ko? O masama na? Sabi nila masama pag sobra. Masama pag bawal. At masama kapag may nasasaktan na.

Pero kahit anong sakit ang maranasan ko ay okay lang. Mas maganda ng sobra kesa sa kulang.

Kesa magsisi ako bandang huli na hindi ko nagawa lahat ng iyon. 

Kesa mabaliwala lahat ng ginagawa ko.

Kahit maging sunod sunuran sayo.

Kahit saktan at saktan mo ako.

Kahit ano gagawin ko.

Kasi kahit sumobra na ang pagmamahal ko ay okay lang

Dahil kahit kelan di naging masama ang magmahal

At alam kong walang mali sa pagibig.
Dahil magbabakasakali pa rin ako sa tayo.
Makikipagsapalaran pa rin ako sa ibang tao.
At kahit walang kasiguraduhan ang mga bagay, gagawin ko pa rin dahil sigurado ako sa nararamdaman ko sayo.

Smile

There’s so many things in this world that makes every people happy.

Some becomes happy through material things.

Some through their friends, family and loved ones.
Some even becomes happy through doing their hobbies and interest.

But can we truly see a persons happiness through their smile??

Every person experience different things in life.
We do things which makes us happy, but are we really happy?

Does smiling, laughing, and giggling are the basis of happiness?

Each individual has different personalities which we must consider.

Sometimes we show other people that we’re happy even though we’re not.

Sometimes we tend to overcome the sadness so we can hide what we truly feel.

And sometimes we don’t want to see the reality which we’re not really happy at all.

Everyday, we almost do the things we like.

We have control to the things we wanna do.

But why do we feel incomplete? Why can’t life be more simple? Life becomes miserable because we kept on hiding our feelings rather than expressing it to others.

That’s why sharing what we truly feel with other people is very fulfilling.

And by this, we may experience what happiness really is.

Because action speaks louder than words.

But actions can’t be the basis of everything.

There’s so many emotions in this world.

And a smile can hide a thousand feelings.

Battery

Sometimes we feel that we can no longer handle the things that are happening.

Sometimes our patience will reach the peak, to the point that we want to give up.

Sometimes we feel that our existence does not matter to anyone.

Sometimes we exert effort even though we know that it won’t still be worth it.

Sometimes we tend to ignore the things that hurts us the most and see the good things in life instead.

Sometimes we even try to make other people happy tho we cannot do it to ourselves.
We may encounter negative things sometimes, it doesn’t matter and life still goes on.
Because life is like a battery. It has two sides, the negative and positive.

We may experience negative things at first, but as time goes by, we’ll experience the things that we really want and it only shows that’s how life works.

So we should make the most out of our lives, express our feelings, enjoy each others company and spread love with one another cause like a battery, life is not permanent.

Worth ( Poem )

Why does everyone realize a persons worth when they’re gone.

Suddenly they’ll remember the things that you’ve done.

No one to be with, to talk to and run.

But when you’re gone you’ll be noticed by everyone.

Sometimes I imagine a world without me.

But it seems that it won’t really matter.

Coz now they could’nt even see.

Maybe when I’m gone their life would be better.

I know everything that is happening has a purpose.

But still, sometimes I feel worthless.

The things that I feel, I can’t express.

Though I know I’m weak, I am still dauntless.

I know there will always be ups and downs.

But I always look at the better things in life.

Coz every tomorrow there will always be chance.

And every darkness that we see, at the end there will always be light.